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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 00:06

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Especially a lifetime of it.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

She married twice! .

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

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I did it because my mum asked me too!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

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When she asked me how she looked .

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I was scared of men, in general

Can I see some saggy tit pics and huge areolas pics?

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

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My life is so biszare .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Does pressing a girls boobs hurt?

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

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Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Why do people mourn when their leaders lose elections? Is it common for people to cry over events that are out of their control?

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Im still living with it.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

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I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

She wouldn,t have been !

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Why would my ex block me after I blocked him?

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Put me off passion for life!!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

My family never makes their pension either.

I was seconnd youngest,

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I never cut or harmed myself..

But, we were locked up after school.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

But ive been too sick for many years..

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

What did i know ?

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Was to survive, this bastard.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I don,t even have a pension.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I couldn’t, believe it.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

And i lived it daily.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

All the time i was locked up.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I will be 64.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

She was in good health!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

This is soul school!.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

He knew the spot.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

It was going to be , some day.

So whats the point in blame.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I waited trembling.

Comes on , in middle age.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Why did i forgive my father ?

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

We all went to grammer schools

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I have no regrets .

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

He resisted the act ,that day.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Who then, do I blame.?

And who doesn’t know suffering?

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I was very sick at this time too.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Ive learnt so much.

She loved him until the end.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

(And it was in our own minds.)

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

But it wasn’t much.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Would this be the day?

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

One cannot live in the past .

I think the readers, may guess!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

We were not on the streets..

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I said to her

I write beautiful poetry .

She found it foreign!.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I was 9 years of age.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

So, i spoilt her more .

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,